The Sin of Unbelief

It has been awhile since I have blogged again. There are just so many "priorities" right now that it is hard to find the time. I have really struggled the last two months and until last night I wasn't sure what with. In January I felt depressed all month and the Lord helped me work that out by showing me to come to Him more on my knees. Last night I figured out what I was still struggling with.

Doubt, fear, and stress all due to the large amount of responsibility I feel for our children's education and training. Actually it is undue stress that I am putting on myself because of my sin of unbelief. I went to the Mandisa concert last night and as we were singing about how great, high, and awesome our God is, I realized I was taking on His responsibility. I can't make my children grow up to love Him, and I can't keep my children from sinning any more than I can make myself not sin. I have read so many parenting books and tips and newsletters on how to train your children to grow up to be Godly adults that I was almost taking God out of it and trying to do it all myself. Having somewhat of a perfectionist nature what was happening was that I had taken on this task all by myself to make my children perfect (funny because I myself am so far from perfect) that every time they misbehaved I felt like a failure. Satan had taken and twisted even my best intentions to train up my children in the nuture and admonition of the Lord into a fear of failure and doubt. My God can do anything in the world and if I am simply striving to do the best I can to raise my children it doesn't have to be perfect, because our perfect God will take it from there and complete it perfectly.

God is clear in the Bible that not believing Him is a sin. This morning I asked Him to forgive me for my sin of unbelief and I turned my children over to Him. I will do the best I can to teach them about Him but I will not be perfect and neither will they and that is ok. I know that instead of worrying about all Satan's traps in the world like sex, drugs, alcohol, pornograpy that could ensnare them, I have to pray for God to strengthen them to say no those traps. I pray for them to have pure hearts and to grow up loving and serving God, now I have to believe Him when He says, "Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it." Praise God for His promises, I do believe Him and I hope you do too.

Hope you have a blessed week or month depending on how long it takes me to blog again!